haix. super tiring day after performance. i mean the day after performance.
slp slp slp.

do you know that you have indirectly hurt us( hmmm... i think i mean me) by doing this. you are to be my blanket of security but i think as time passed, this blanket is getting thinner by the minute. now i know why i choose to be alone in the first place even though i have my 'friends' around mi. this is so that i would not hurt myself when this friendship ends and it will i assure you. only sooner or later. and it's not mi who choose to end it. now i've gotten myself too deep in this friendship thing that i cant seem to get out. just like a quicksand. whatever you do, it's make me feel sad, angry, helplessness. and to feel this at this time of the year is such a not good thing with prelims in 1 week time. haix.
YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE ONLY TO TEACH ME HOW TO LIVE ALONE.. not only that.
YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE ONLY TO TEACH ME THAT THESE RELATIONSHIPS WILL NEVER LAST.. thank you for that.

restless

haix. i know that it'a less than a month to prelims 2 and 90 days left till A lvls. but i think that now i do not have the same enthusasim found during common test'09 and prelim 1. i just feel "uh". don't really know what to do. but i know that i must keep studying. did mock exam for accounts today and found out that i can't do partnership account( AGAIN!). ratio- haven't fully memorise the formulas. and worse of all THEORY!!!! OMG. for the 20m qns, the calculation part only consist of around 4-6m. so little!!! then the rest is theory. explain this explain that. give advise. blah blah blah. haix.

I think that the world teach me how to make friends to learn the feeling of fustration, lonely, disappointment, and whatever things you can think of.

98 days left

98 DAYS LEFT to General Paper!!! OMG. and I'm still failing my GP. My lecturer said that other JC students the moment they start writing means they will pass. 'Coz their language is strong at least stronger than mine.
Actually promised myself not to use computer except every Saturday. BUT... but... It's so tempting but... I can't use it. So I can see myself starting to get away from the addiction of the computer. I will try my best to discipline myself. Because I do not want to start blaming myself of why I'm couldn't stop myself from using the comp if that is what lead to my downfall. *Touchwood*
So maybe once in awhile i will update about what's happening during these 98 days left.
Yups! Did you reliease that I'm trying my best not to write in Singlish. Need to get use to talking and writing in proper English. If not, say sayonara to my GP => University.  Don't want this to happen. I will go to the University! YES!!
So I shall go off now, studying for tommorrow's Economics mock exam. It's on mircoecons. FIGHTING!!!! I shall pass for this time round's exam!!!