new year...

when it comes to a new year...ppl will will always come up wih their new year resolutions... so that they will be able to focus and have clear directions of wat to do for the new year...

as for mi.. new year resolutions i dont really care... im still happy-go-lucky kind of person... same as when i was in sec sch... i tried to do up a new year resolution for this year... but it was of no use... didnt really care abt wat i wrote, not even taking a look at it after a few weeks.... haha... so yea.. new year resolutions=useless in my context larx for now...

 so a few days back, when i was on the way home home, i tot abt the fun times i had during sec sch...  be it cca, prefectrial bord,cip, family day,cca orientation, open hse, registration day, camps, you name it... it was fun...  it was really fun times that i had... couldnt forget them... and always telling ghost stories to the juniors n during camps... so fun... but then got one thing that i kinda regretted... i played so hard but i didnt student/work as hard... last time onli think abt playing n having fun... that's one thing that i'd regretted... but then if i'd gotten better scores, i would not have gone to MI n meet such nice n fun ppl... n get to noe abt AKE...  now that i'd gratuated from the schools... i can now oni think back of the memories that i'd collected in the past 7 years... i would like to go back to the schs, not as a student(touchwood), but as an alumni or helper of some sort... haha...

yea... now spring cleaning n blogging at the same time though... so the entry will be like...erm.... haha... haven ask my ma abt the trip yet... tsk... but i think that she will not allow lorx... highly possible... onli 0.0000001% that she will say yes... haha...dont noe if the others asked their parents liao anot... haha...

stil haben tell... dunno tell or not telll... chicken backside... tsk.. still sick... flu...

gonna go cler mytable now... pack the notes n stuff nicely into the containers... hmmm... not nicely bahx... just dump it in first... after get results liao the put nicely... or throw away some lorx... or most or it... haha.... the new lappy batt life quitelow lex.. 2 hrs max... but then veri fast... i7... hmmm... but ok lorx... can use can liao... just plug it into the socket n just the home electricity... dont waste batt life... going to cut hair soon!!! Sunday!!!! kkz...

go clear stuff liao... so tired... i want to slp some more... suddenly remind mi of koi... haha...

MOVIE MARATHON NO. 2!!!
coolness!!!
again with 3 movies this time round... haha... didnt watch meet the parents.... but it's ok ... watched with another grp of friends...
nice!!!!! i love marathon... shiokness...
shall do it again if have time n the money!!!! MONEY!!!!!!!!!

is it just so difficult to reply my smses? just type one word to reply oso can... so why cant u just freaking reply...  is it really that difficult? i tot u say u wont ignore mi? then wat is this? onli want the old ones but not the new ones? so get back to the old ones then can just abondon us liao rite? after harry potter u say u wold obliviate our memories if u can... so wat! u saying that u regretted having us as your friends? i feel super sadden when u say that... it's just that i didnt say it out during that time... wateva u said had impacted my tots deeply to the stage where i cant take it anymore at time n i just break down... there are times...  so yea... i'm sad... i'm down... i'm wateva.. it's just that it's good  that we are still meeting up at times...  can just made mi forget about ur comments n stuff even for a short of time...

 As a Capricorn you value your possessions like some people value their children.
~Zodiacfacts

shld i shld i not... shld i blog abt something happy... shld i blog abt wat's been on my mind the moment i reach s'pore? shld i? shld i not? kkz... shall not blog...
and oh yea... i didn't get GPA... i no understand why i didnt get... nvr improve mehx? got mahx... gp i think have... acc ya... mob yup... econs  nope... so no improve? haix... money money money... i want the money... not at home for 3 days n the bloddy letter nvr come.. haix... failure seh...

Healing a Broken Heart

Recent studies show that at the end of a love relationship, either because of a break-up or divorce, your body actually suffers physical deprivation. It turns out the “chemistry” of love is real. It’s called phenylethylalmine and it creates a response somewhat like an amphetamine high. When a loving relationship ends, the brain stops producing the phenylethylalmine and immediately starts feeling its loss. The resulting symptoms are very much like those of amphetamine withdrawal, primarily depression and apathy. (If you find yourself gorging on chocolate, you might be trying to cure yourself; chocolate is full of phenylethylalmine.)


http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/healing-a-broken-heart-2422479/

OMG!!! this is wat is did sometime ago.. gorging on chocoloate... haha... but worry not... not due to broken heart... hmm... but definately not due to love relationaship cos i have none! haha

Chinese Goat: Daily


Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Provided by Astrology.com

Daily Horoscope for December 15, 2010 (Today)

Show off your sensitive side to even the scaliest of creatures. You don't have to pretend you're immune to feelings. Someone may be doubting your emotional investment. Make sure you convey your dedication by revealing your true nature.
 
yeahness... haha... but still no thx...

wha just now so happy now a bit... ehem.. haha... but it's going to be short this time round... haha!!!
kkzz.... hmm... i dont really feel anything larx today... haha... cos my mind busy with the movies!!!! haha!!!! so good!!! but then if i relax my mind to much... as in not doing anything, i will start daydreaming... as thing think about nonsensical stuff.. which will be bad for both my mind n heart... just like yesterday... haha... but then if i start thinking abt it i will blog it down n just move on with it... hehe.. wont think abt it for that day larx.. haha... :D



3 movies at 1 go!!!

WOOOO!!!! Finally had a movie marathon!!! and it's 3 movie at once!!!! first time sia... didnt even watch 2 movies straight b4 lorx... haha... couldnt have done it without syidah n izwan... haha... like some project like that... haha... it is for mi!!! woo!!!!
we watched rapunzel followed by hello stranger then harry potter again!!!!
haha!!!!
rapunzel was nice... although ppl says it's cartoon but it's nice!!! the girl with magical hair and the best of all is that she can do all sorts of stunts with her hair.. wooo!!!
hello stranger is a thai movie!!! comedy n romance!!! nice!!! i like... dunno wat to say but nice.. it took place in korea... the guy... so funny... the girl so cute... wooo!!! kkz
harry potter... aiya no nid to say much larx... 2nd time watching... this time didnt get scared easily liao... haha... didnt cry when dobby die liao... although i still got scared once... actually wanted to watch skyline.. alien sci-fi movie... but then 2 star ratings onli... so yea harry again... :D
kkzzz... shall go have movie marathon again!!! tues!!!! then can go GV... if not cathay!!! student!!!! yea!!! b4 the year ends going for another movie marathon again with the gang!!! wooo!!!!! i don care!!!! wooo!!!!

chicken watching anime abt betrayal (Uragiri wa Boku no Namae o Shitteiru)... jialat.. shall change anime.. next time then continue... haha.. lorx... change change...

rite at this moment, i don feel rite at all.. not physically but emotionall n mentally... dunno wat's wrong with mi... yea.... suddenly i just feel like crying... the tears horx. alreay well up to my eyes liao lorx.. i think my mind just wandered off somewhere... subconcious mind... pls don do that again.. i dont want it to happen... wanted to sms my friend to talk abt it... but before pressing the send button, i cancelled it. cos even if i sent that msg, wat's ther to talk abt? i oso dunno myself... i was seriously thinking of getting a counsellor for myself. but then even if i get 1, wat's there to talk abt? i oso dunno... ok pplz.. seriously i'm not mentally n emotionally stable rite now.. F***... kkz... cant cry cos mother in the room, sis in the room... haha.... ltr when they slp then i see how bahx... maybe if i tear when i go to slp, i may feel lighter by tmr.. so that i can anticipate tmr's movie marathon.. but then i think horx. eveything's got to do with that person.... haix... dunno which person but that person... i oso dunno.. i've been eating chocolate the whole freaking day and it cant still cheer mi up... what's up this the best remedy for unhappiness/sadness is chocolate... fake...kkz... better go play game n kepe my mind occupied... ooo...
i think i noe why i so tired liao... cos when i finish doing up their presents late into the nite, i will still go onto wifi while i'm on bed... then will be online for quite a few hours to make sure my mind is occupied... cos i will tend to anyhow think... then jialat if i think of other things n be emotionally n mentally unstable... so i rather go wifi n read some fanfics... till i'm too tired to even hold the phone up will i turn off the wifi n go to slp... by that time i think some ppl are starting to wake up liao.. to prepare for their work... while i'm abt to go to slp... haha... nowadays a bit better onli lorx... slp abit earlier cos the slping late schedule has finally taken its toll on mi... yea!!! even if i blog n pour my hearts out, i dont feel lighter less emotional or wat so ever... it's still the same!!!! freak!!!! even my anime n manga cant help mi liao.. wat to do!!!!!
so i'm going to go out early tmr to vivo... go play arcade... $5 onli!!! like i've told syidah abt it... onli $5 on arcade n no more... then the rest is window shopping.. n window shopping or watch other ppl play... yup!!!shall keep my mind occupied!!!!!!!!
think i'm on the edge of breaking down... yea ppl :D for no freaking reason.. maybe there is larx.. but wateva.... haha... i dunno the reason oso.. haha.... no more chocolates!!!! it not cant go genting... T.T

i'm such an ugly person... inside out... yup... i'm selfish... when i see my good/close friends coversing with their other friends, i feel very angry.. jealous? must be lorx... i dont like to see my friends toking to his or her friends whom i dont noe... even if i noe them i oso dont like cos their friends not my good/close friends... so wat do you call this? possesive? is that the word? i dont noe.. it's just that i want them to be my own and i don want to share.. yea... cos i feel that once they start talking to their friends, i will lose mine too.. n trust mi, the friend will soon leave mi... so sometimes, i'm a sadist inside my heart... i don want my friends' attention to go elsewhere except for mi you noe... but.. despite being ugly inside out, must glamour myself... always smile and things will be fine even if there are not...
just watch this anime ova... called black rock shooter... dont understand a freaking thing from the beginning till the end... haha... except for the few seconds at the end... haha... got larx... i understand the normal world of the story but not the other one.. this girl just made a  new friend in junior high... they very quickly became the best of friends... as they went to the 2nd year, 'cause they we in different classes, the girl has her own friends n slowly her best friend is drifting away from her... and one day she disappear...
NO!!!!!!!!!!!! that's the most scariest thing that is going to happen... i don't want it to happen to me or my friends!!!!! i dont noe wat i toking liao... not in the rite state of mind i think... wait when had i been in the rite state of mind? i dont noe.. i think i'm veri not in 1 piece rite now... suddenly feel like this suddenly feel like that... had i know growing up is so torturing, .... can do nth about it.... the process of growing up is somethings that you cant stop... kns... haix... shall go play 02mania now... haha.. play game oso same... cannot get my mind of things... no wonder filled with darkness... haha.. previous blog oso... nth in the world seems rite... hmmm... so i got prob larx... haha!!!
sometimes... i oso dunno myself... a text message from someone will make me feel veri sad, fustrated, etc...  the emotions in it are really those big ones you noe.... but my vocab limited so i cant really describe it out... but seriuosly... sometimes it make feel like dying during that veri moment... i dunno why... but seriuosly... oh kami-sama wat is happening to mi... T.T but no worry to much... blog is blog... pen down i  mean type down all my tots and hope that i will just stay in this virtual world.. kkz....

had fun today with zhixin n izwan!!! go walk walk the stgcc... haha... got a few freebies... BUT not enough!!!! i got no $$$$!!!!! i want $$$!!! no money no buy things that i want T.T sad case sia.. saw 1 kantana... ichigo de... i want!!! $35... tell mi where go give birth to so much money... haix... then i see ppl big bag small bag de... i no bag except for the one that i'm carrying... sad case... but then i bought a 2 landyards to use when i go back to teach... nice:) the chara is called blood rabbit!!!! WOOO!!!!!!!... i like the name!!! then saw the gloomy bear claw!!!!!! $10!!!!!!!!! i want!!!!!!!! no money!!!!!!!!!! even if buy no place to keep!!!! only get scolded... T.T T.T i'm so going to stgcc again next year!!!! and shall call along both of them again!!!!! then this time hope syidah got interest in it liao:D haha...
but then horx... i feel so bad for dragging him along to the convention.... T.T feel bad...
then watch movie with the same gang but add in Syidah!!!!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!!!!! we watched Narnia!!!!! yea!!!!! we were so tired that we were the 2nd to went into the cinema... haha... so sit n stone... haha... i tot we were the 1st, nearly started singing.... haha....paiseh sia.... oh.. b4 that went to eat at pizza hut @ city square mall... tot still got BBQ chicken... in the end change to Korean BBQ... wat is this... o.o sad sia... want to eat but cannot eat... tsk... haix... next time lorx.... but then horx we went to check the directory, thenBBQ chicken is still there... they don bother to change it... kns... haha... ate pizza... curry zazzle n pizza!!!!!! at the 7 cheezey thingy... i eat until scared liao... haha.. think that's it for pizza esp the cheezy one for 2010... haha... if rice or pasta or other pizza still ok!!! haha!!!!
STUDENT MEAL!!!!!!!! i'm going to take advantage of you b4 it's gone!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kkz... going to check the px for the CSI @ science centre... yea... going for another movie session soon!!! marathon... yea... so ppl involved!!! u noe who u are i hope.... prepare your $$$!!! haha!!! i'm going to spend like carzy!!!!!!! so that i can start earning next month!!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!!!!
kkzz... going to slp soon anyway... shall go bbp to go repair my psp n the adaptor... dunno wat happenT.T maybe go buy a new casing too:D
kkzz... cya...

had fun today playing badminton!!!! watching syidah serve the shuttle cock is so funny.... always laugh without fail... abit de bad larx... but so funny lorx... haha... gave Syidah her last part of the birthday present and zhixin's advanced birthday!!!! hope she really liked it... :D
today funny haha.... went to the wrong cc for badminton... so funny... walked then rushed... hmm... did we? ya bahx in a way or two... haha.... then end up we played 15 mins later... haha.... but then nvm cos the next slot pair came in veri late... so in the end we played 1/2 hr extra i think... haha... coolness!!!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!

tmr going for the singapore games toys comics convention!!!!!!!!! wooo!!!!!!! been looking forward to thins convention since last yr...!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!!! finally get to go..... roar!!! haha... going with zhixin... izwan no idea... haha.... but then meeting up later in the evening for movie!!!!!! yea!!!!!! dunno watching wat but yea!!!!!!!! ahaha!!!!!

room's still in a veri big mess!!! even worse than during A lvls period... presents still lying around on the floor... notes files.... all around... T.T when can i clear them.. T.T haha....

p.s. hey chicken! if you read liao tell mi horx... i dunno wat i want to do but just tell mi if you read   liao...

Chinese Horse: Daily


Friday, December 10, 2010
Provided by Astrology.com

Daily Horoscope Daily Overview for December 10, 2010 (Today)


Are you tempted to cut ties with someone? A flailing romantic relationship or an unruly client could be driving you crazy, and you might feel you're better off alone. While sometimes that's true, you can't run away from relationships when things get rough. Make sure you've put in a solid effort before throwing in the towel.

that's how i'm feeling rite now... from end of exams till now...

so firstly, i seriously do not understand what is going through other ppl's mind man... i can like break down due to it... and trust mi, it's going to be soon by the rate it's going.... can they just reply to my smses.... is it so freaking difficult... i noe if they forget larx... i try to be understanding to ppl... ok wait for other ppl to reply ok understood... busy at the moment understood... sleeping understood... but not replying my msges not understood at alll!!!!!!!!!! i've waited like 1/2 a day for the person to reply and still doesnt reply when nite comes... give short msges oso got prob sia... just press orhx or kkx... i oso satisfied... is it just so freaking difficult? i no understand ppl.... maybe shld go take up psychology... haha... but stupid.... so cannot study.... haix... even though it's already holidays, im still very stressed over stuff and other things..

2nd, kkz... my content i anyhow throw liao cos i agitated liao... i know larx... u can go entertain ppl but just cannot entertain us... saw ur friends then leave us behind... i dunno if i'm rite about the us thing but yea.. emo emo emo emo emo emo emo.... it just feel like i shld just go back to by primary school days when i'm all by myself where no one noticed about mi or blah blah blah... then at least i will still be in my own comfort zone where i dont care about others' opinions about mi... then i can just tok to them but not be the real n close friends... i oso have 1 closed friend during pri school... no dunno where she go liao... dont think she even want to tok to mi... haix... so isnt it best when you are just alone by yourself just observing others and do nth lorx.... to tell the truth just recently, i seriously feel like committing suicide.... but i'm not that stupid to do that... it's just that i tot if i die, i wont have to go through all these things.... and even if i die, no one would even bother... :D good mahx... ppl only like other friends but not me:) i think maybe some even regretted having me as their friends... what to do.... sometimes i act so child-like is cos i want attention from others and i'm feeling insecure at that veri moment...
whateva larx... dont feel like saying anymore... going for badminton soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. those who read this post, pls do not worry as i'm ok! and no make big fuss about it... :D
      i don think ppl will even care about mi....(some larx)

If i rmb wat happen today, i'll blog it tmr nite!

tmr's going to be yet another busy day... hahah.... camp briefing!!!!!! woo!!!!!!!!! can't wait but abit don feel like going cos tired... haha... but NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! must go!!!!!!!! yea!!!! later my engine dying liao then by the time sch starts, engine cannot go back.... haha... kkzz... abit de lazy to blog... nid to do quite a lot of things tonite... i mean online searching... so nitez bahx...
p.s. she even noe where i put the blog add how come u dunno... tsk... lazy... or don even bother....

AKE chalet finally over liao!! Had a very fun time tonning with syidah izwan kelly lixuan junyi! Hahah. Fun fun! Big fish small fish! Ultimate babi! Yea! Trust game! Haha. Slack the whole day during the second day cos super tired. Watch tv larx eat n slp... Haha! Yea! I oso go randomly act in the year 1s skit! Haha! I'm an iceberg! Wow! Had fun with dini n shahir(hope i spell his name correctly)!!! Bbq! Fun! Cos rain halfway but then we still continue! Haha! Roar! Umbrellas on the go!!! Haha! Then go nite cycling! Woo! Woo! Had fun racing with izwan then doubling with lixuan! Lixuan very gd partner! Haha! Then after sending syidah back home, we took taxi home!! Haha! 20+ bucks! Haha! Gave syidah alot of presents! Yea! Today breakfast excruciating! Haha! No appittite! Haha! Then syidah n karen made me force down my pancakes! Cos mac pancake got 3, each of us took 1 each! Haha!
But then horx.. I feel very emoy during chalet! Yup! Emoy! Very much! No one to tok to.. Tok to wall ppl tot i crazy tok to ppl i don feel safe. Haha. If i think abt it, i might as well go die cos the tot of it is excrucitating! Haha! This one seriously no joke. Slpy liao.. Although i slept for 7hrs rite after i reach home! Haha!

still doing ppl's present... someone's halfway done... 2 more still lying around... T.T no!!!! omg!!! jialat!!!! haven print out the template!!!! jialat!!! this is even worse than a lvls... haha... my financial manager already slping i still doing owrk.. haha... kkz.. shall continue go do... will be back soon...

it's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kkz!!!!!!!!!!!! no more a lvls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! unless *touchwood* ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha!!!!!!!!! kkz... next post!!!!!!!!!!!

Last...

Last day of wearing the uniform. Last exam that i'm going to take in my 13 yrs of education life. Last time i'm going to step into the sch as a student. Last time i'm going to go into the hall wearing my jacket and feeling excited. Last time i'm going to touch my mob. last time going to take exam in the hall. Last time going to take exam in such a stress condition. Last time to be a teen (no more teenage life soon liao- b'dae soon). Econs, acc, gp's last time already over. Yesterday was the last time we went to tpy to study. Monday was the last time we went to woodlands lib to study. So many last time. I think stìll got alot last time haben write.

@.@ mens came early in the morning... Delayed by 1/2 a month. Now pain until dunno is cramps or tummy ache.. T.T good and not good that it came today. Gd cos means that the chalet period is the end liao or even finished. Then during holiday no more!! Yea! Haha. No good cos cramp like crazy. Haha. Then tmr 2nd day, tmr mob n shopping. Haha. Uncomfortable day! Haha!

Anyway 1 more day to MOB paper 2! Haha! And 1 more day till freedom!