new year...

when it comes to a new year...ppl will will always come up wih their new year resolutions... so that they will be able to focus and have clear directions of wat to do for the new year...

as for mi.. new year resolutions i dont really care... im still happy-go-lucky kind of person... same as when i was in sec sch... i tried to do up a new year resolution for this year... but it was of no use... didnt really care abt wat i wrote, not even taking a look at it after a few weeks.... haha... so yea.. new year resolutions=useless in my context larx for now...

 so a few days back, when i was on the way home home, i tot abt the fun times i had during sec sch...  be it cca, prefectrial bord,cip, family day,cca orientation, open hse, registration day, camps, you name it... it was fun...  it was really fun times that i had... couldnt forget them... and always telling ghost stories to the juniors n during camps... so fun... but then got one thing that i kinda regretted... i played so hard but i didnt student/work as hard... last time onli think abt playing n having fun... that's one thing that i'd regretted... but then if i'd gotten better scores, i would not have gone to MI n meet such nice n fun ppl... n get to noe abt AKE...  now that i'd gratuated from the schools... i can now oni think back of the memories that i'd collected in the past 7 years... i would like to go back to the schs, not as a student(touchwood), but as an alumni or helper of some sort... haha...

yea... now spring cleaning n blogging at the same time though... so the entry will be like...erm.... haha... haven ask my ma abt the trip yet... tsk... but i think that she will not allow lorx... highly possible... onli 0.0000001% that she will say yes... haha...dont noe if the others asked their parents liao anot... haha...

stil haben tell... dunno tell or not telll... chicken backside... tsk.. still sick... flu...

gonna go cler mytable now... pack the notes n stuff nicely into the containers... hmmm... not nicely bahx... just dump it in first... after get results liao the put nicely... or throw away some lorx... or most or it... haha.... the new lappy batt life quitelow lex.. 2 hrs max... but then veri fast... i7... hmmm... but ok lorx... can use can liao... just plug it into the socket n just the home electricity... dont waste batt life... going to cut hair soon!!! Sunday!!!! kkz...

go clear stuff liao... so tired... i want to slp some more... suddenly remind mi of koi... haha...

MOVIE MARATHON NO. 2!!!
coolness!!!
again with 3 movies this time round... haha... didnt watch meet the parents.... but it's ok ... watched with another grp of friends...
nice!!!!! i love marathon... shiokness...
shall do it again if have time n the money!!!! MONEY!!!!!!!!!

is it just so difficult to reply my smses? just type one word to reply oso can... so why cant u just freaking reply...  is it really that difficult? i tot u say u wont ignore mi? then wat is this? onli want the old ones but not the new ones? so get back to the old ones then can just abondon us liao rite? after harry potter u say u wold obliviate our memories if u can... so wat! u saying that u regretted having us as your friends? i feel super sadden when u say that... it's just that i didnt say it out during that time... wateva u said had impacted my tots deeply to the stage where i cant take it anymore at time n i just break down... there are times...  so yea... i'm sad... i'm down... i'm wateva.. it's just that it's good  that we are still meeting up at times...  can just made mi forget about ur comments n stuff even for a short of time...

 As a Capricorn you value your possessions like some people value their children.
~Zodiacfacts

shld i shld i not... shld i blog abt something happy... shld i blog abt wat's been on my mind the moment i reach s'pore? shld i? shld i not? kkz... shall not blog...
and oh yea... i didn't get GPA... i no understand why i didnt get... nvr improve mehx? got mahx... gp i think have... acc ya... mob yup... econs  nope... so no improve? haix... money money money... i want the money... not at home for 3 days n the bloddy letter nvr come.. haix... failure seh...

Healing a Broken Heart

Recent studies show that at the end of a love relationship, either because of a break-up or divorce, your body actually suffers physical deprivation. It turns out the “chemistry” of love is real. It’s called phenylethylalmine and it creates a response somewhat like an amphetamine high. When a loving relationship ends, the brain stops producing the phenylethylalmine and immediately starts feeling its loss. The resulting symptoms are very much like those of amphetamine withdrawal, primarily depression and apathy. (If you find yourself gorging on chocolate, you might be trying to cure yourself; chocolate is full of phenylethylalmine.)


http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/healing-a-broken-heart-2422479/

OMG!!! this is wat is did sometime ago.. gorging on chocoloate... haha... but worry not... not due to broken heart... hmm... but definately not due to love relationaship cos i have none! haha

Chinese Goat: Daily


Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Provided by Astrology.com

Daily Horoscope for December 15, 2010 (Today)

Show off your sensitive side to even the scaliest of creatures. You don't have to pretend you're immune to feelings. Someone may be doubting your emotional investment. Make sure you convey your dedication by revealing your true nature.
 
yeahness... haha... but still no thx...

wha just now so happy now a bit... ehem.. haha... but it's going to be short this time round... haha!!!
kkzz.... hmm... i dont really feel anything larx today... haha... cos my mind busy with the movies!!!! haha!!!! so good!!! but then if i relax my mind to much... as in not doing anything, i will start daydreaming... as thing think about nonsensical stuff.. which will be bad for both my mind n heart... just like yesterday... haha... but then if i start thinking abt it i will blog it down n just move on with it... hehe.. wont think abt it for that day larx.. haha... :D



3 movies at 1 go!!!

WOOOO!!!! Finally had a movie marathon!!! and it's 3 movie at once!!!! first time sia... didnt even watch 2 movies straight b4 lorx... haha... couldnt have done it without syidah n izwan... haha... like some project like that... haha... it is for mi!!! woo!!!!
we watched rapunzel followed by hello stranger then harry potter again!!!!
haha!!!!
rapunzel was nice... although ppl says it's cartoon but it's nice!!! the girl with magical hair and the best of all is that she can do all sorts of stunts with her hair.. wooo!!!
hello stranger is a thai movie!!! comedy n romance!!! nice!!! i like... dunno wat to say but nice.. it took place in korea... the guy... so funny... the girl so cute... wooo!!! kkz
harry potter... aiya no nid to say much larx... 2nd time watching... this time didnt get scared easily liao... haha... didnt cry when dobby die liao... although i still got scared once... actually wanted to watch skyline.. alien sci-fi movie... but then 2 star ratings onli... so yea harry again... :D
kkzzz... shall go have movie marathon again!!! tues!!!! then can go GV... if not cathay!!! student!!!! yea!!! b4 the year ends going for another movie marathon again with the gang!!! wooo!!!!! i don care!!!! wooo!!!!

chicken watching anime abt betrayal (Uragiri wa Boku no Namae o Shitteiru)... jialat.. shall change anime.. next time then continue... haha.. lorx... change change...

rite at this moment, i don feel rite at all.. not physically but emotionall n mentally... dunno wat's wrong with mi... yea.... suddenly i just feel like crying... the tears horx. alreay well up to my eyes liao lorx.. i think my mind just wandered off somewhere... subconcious mind... pls don do that again.. i dont want it to happen... wanted to sms my friend to talk abt it... but before pressing the send button, i cancelled it. cos even if i sent that msg, wat's ther to talk abt? i oso dunno myself... i was seriously thinking of getting a counsellor for myself. but then even if i get 1, wat's there to talk abt? i oso dunno... ok pplz.. seriously i'm not mentally n emotionally stable rite now.. F***... kkz... cant cry cos mother in the room, sis in the room... haha.... ltr when they slp then i see how bahx... maybe if i tear when i go to slp, i may feel lighter by tmr.. so that i can anticipate tmr's movie marathon.. but then i think horx. eveything's got to do with that person.... haix... dunno which person but that person... i oso dunno.. i've been eating chocolate the whole freaking day and it cant still cheer mi up... what's up this the best remedy for unhappiness/sadness is chocolate... fake...kkz... better go play game n kepe my mind occupied... ooo...
i think i noe why i so tired liao... cos when i finish doing up their presents late into the nite, i will still go onto wifi while i'm on bed... then will be online for quite a few hours to make sure my mind is occupied... cos i will tend to anyhow think... then jialat if i think of other things n be emotionally n mentally unstable... so i rather go wifi n read some fanfics... till i'm too tired to even hold the phone up will i turn off the wifi n go to slp... by that time i think some ppl are starting to wake up liao.. to prepare for their work... while i'm abt to go to slp... haha... nowadays a bit better onli lorx... slp abit earlier cos the slping late schedule has finally taken its toll on mi... yea!!! even if i blog n pour my hearts out, i dont feel lighter less emotional or wat so ever... it's still the same!!!! freak!!!! even my anime n manga cant help mi liao.. wat to do!!!!!
so i'm going to go out early tmr to vivo... go play arcade... $5 onli!!! like i've told syidah abt it... onli $5 on arcade n no more... then the rest is window shopping.. n window shopping or watch other ppl play... yup!!!shall keep my mind occupied!!!!!!!!
think i'm on the edge of breaking down... yea ppl :D for no freaking reason.. maybe there is larx.. but wateva.... haha... i dunno the reason oso.. haha.... no more chocolates!!!! it not cant go genting... T.T

i'm such an ugly person... inside out... yup... i'm selfish... when i see my good/close friends coversing with their other friends, i feel very angry.. jealous? must be lorx... i dont like to see my friends toking to his or her friends whom i dont noe... even if i noe them i oso dont like cos their friends not my good/close friends... so wat do you call this? possesive? is that the word? i dont noe.. it's just that i want them to be my own and i don want to share.. yea... cos i feel that once they start talking to their friends, i will lose mine too.. n trust mi, the friend will soon leave mi... so sometimes, i'm a sadist inside my heart... i don want my friends' attention to go elsewhere except for mi you noe... but.. despite being ugly inside out, must glamour myself... always smile and things will be fine even if there are not...
just watch this anime ova... called black rock shooter... dont understand a freaking thing from the beginning till the end... haha... except for the few seconds at the end... haha... got larx... i understand the normal world of the story but not the other one.. this girl just made a  new friend in junior high... they very quickly became the best of friends... as they went to the 2nd year, 'cause they we in different classes, the girl has her own friends n slowly her best friend is drifting away from her... and one day she disappear...
NO!!!!!!!!!!!! that's the most scariest thing that is going to happen... i don't want it to happen to me or my friends!!!!! i dont noe wat i toking liao... not in the rite state of mind i think... wait when had i been in the rite state of mind? i dont noe.. i think i'm veri not in 1 piece rite now... suddenly feel like this suddenly feel like that... had i know growing up is so torturing, .... can do nth about it.... the process of growing up is somethings that you cant stop... kns... haix... shall go play 02mania now... haha.. play game oso same... cannot get my mind of things... no wonder filled with darkness... haha.. previous blog oso... nth in the world seems rite... hmmm... so i got prob larx... haha!!!
sometimes... i oso dunno myself... a text message from someone will make me feel veri sad, fustrated, etc...  the emotions in it are really those big ones you noe.... but my vocab limited so i cant really describe it out... but seriuosly... sometimes it make feel like dying during that veri moment... i dunno why... but seriuosly... oh kami-sama wat is happening to mi... T.T but no worry to much... blog is blog... pen down i  mean type down all my tots and hope that i will just stay in this virtual world.. kkz....

had fun today with zhixin n izwan!!! go walk walk the stgcc... haha... got a few freebies... BUT not enough!!!! i got no $$$$!!!!! i want $$$!!! no money no buy things that i want T.T sad case sia.. saw 1 kantana... ichigo de... i want!!! $35... tell mi where go give birth to so much money... haix... then i see ppl big bag small bag de... i no bag except for the one that i'm carrying... sad case... but then i bought a 2 landyards to use when i go back to teach... nice:) the chara is called blood rabbit!!!! WOOO!!!!!!!... i like the name!!! then saw the gloomy bear claw!!!!!! $10!!!!!!!!! i want!!!!!!!! no money!!!!!!!!!! even if buy no place to keep!!!! only get scolded... T.T T.T i'm so going to stgcc again next year!!!! and shall call along both of them again!!!!! then this time hope syidah got interest in it liao:D haha...
but then horx... i feel so bad for dragging him along to the convention.... T.T feel bad...
then watch movie with the same gang but add in Syidah!!!!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!!!!! we watched Narnia!!!!! yea!!!!! we were so tired that we were the 2nd to went into the cinema... haha... so sit n stone... haha... i tot we were the 1st, nearly started singing.... haha....paiseh sia.... oh.. b4 that went to eat at pizza hut @ city square mall... tot still got BBQ chicken... in the end change to Korean BBQ... wat is this... o.o sad sia... want to eat but cannot eat... tsk... haix... next time lorx.... but then horx we went to check the directory, thenBBQ chicken is still there... they don bother to change it... kns... haha... ate pizza... curry zazzle n pizza!!!!!! at the 7 cheezey thingy... i eat until scared liao... haha.. think that's it for pizza esp the cheezy one for 2010... haha... if rice or pasta or other pizza still ok!!! haha!!!!
STUDENT MEAL!!!!!!!! i'm going to take advantage of you b4 it's gone!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kkz... going to check the px for the CSI @ science centre... yea... going for another movie session soon!!! marathon... yea... so ppl involved!!! u noe who u are i hope.... prepare your $$$!!! haha!!! i'm going to spend like carzy!!!!!!! so that i can start earning next month!!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!!!!
kkzz... going to slp soon anyway... shall go bbp to go repair my psp n the adaptor... dunno wat happenT.T maybe go buy a new casing too:D
kkzz... cya...

had fun today playing badminton!!!! watching syidah serve the shuttle cock is so funny.... always laugh without fail... abit de bad larx... but so funny lorx... haha... gave Syidah her last part of the birthday present and zhixin's advanced birthday!!!! hope she really liked it... :D
today funny haha.... went to the wrong cc for badminton... so funny... walked then rushed... hmm... did we? ya bahx in a way or two... haha.... then end up we played 15 mins later... haha.... but then nvm cos the next slot pair came in veri late... so in the end we played 1/2 hr extra i think... haha... coolness!!!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!

tmr going for the singapore games toys comics convention!!!!!!!!! wooo!!!!!!! been looking forward to thins convention since last yr...!!!!!!!! yea!!!!!!!! finally get to go..... roar!!! haha... going with zhixin... izwan no idea... haha.... but then meeting up later in the evening for movie!!!!!! yea!!!!!! dunno watching wat but yea!!!!!!!! ahaha!!!!!

room's still in a veri big mess!!! even worse than during A lvls period... presents still lying around on the floor... notes files.... all around... T.T when can i clear them.. T.T haha....

p.s. hey chicken! if you read liao tell mi horx... i dunno wat i want to do but just tell mi if you read   liao...

Chinese Horse: Daily


Friday, December 10, 2010
Provided by Astrology.com

Daily Horoscope Daily Overview for December 10, 2010 (Today)


Are you tempted to cut ties with someone? A flailing romantic relationship or an unruly client could be driving you crazy, and you might feel you're better off alone. While sometimes that's true, you can't run away from relationships when things get rough. Make sure you've put in a solid effort before throwing in the towel.

that's how i'm feeling rite now... from end of exams till now...

so firstly, i seriously do not understand what is going through other ppl's mind man... i can like break down due to it... and trust mi, it's going to be soon by the rate it's going.... can they just reply to my smses.... is it so freaking difficult... i noe if they forget larx... i try to be understanding to ppl... ok wait for other ppl to reply ok understood... busy at the moment understood... sleeping understood... but not replying my msges not understood at alll!!!!!!!!!! i've waited like 1/2 a day for the person to reply and still doesnt reply when nite comes... give short msges oso got prob sia... just press orhx or kkx... i oso satisfied... is it just so freaking difficult? i no understand ppl.... maybe shld go take up psychology... haha... but stupid.... so cannot study.... haix... even though it's already holidays, im still very stressed over stuff and other things..

2nd, kkz... my content i anyhow throw liao cos i agitated liao... i know larx... u can go entertain ppl but just cannot entertain us... saw ur friends then leave us behind... i dunno if i'm rite about the us thing but yea.. emo emo emo emo emo emo emo.... it just feel like i shld just go back to by primary school days when i'm all by myself where no one noticed about mi or blah blah blah... then at least i will still be in my own comfort zone where i dont care about others' opinions about mi... then i can just tok to them but not be the real n close friends... i oso have 1 closed friend during pri school... no dunno where she go liao... dont think she even want to tok to mi... haix... so isnt it best when you are just alone by yourself just observing others and do nth lorx.... to tell the truth just recently, i seriously feel like committing suicide.... but i'm not that stupid to do that... it's just that i tot if i die, i wont have to go through all these things.... and even if i die, no one would even bother... :D good mahx... ppl only like other friends but not me:) i think maybe some even regretted having me as their friends... what to do.... sometimes i act so child-like is cos i want attention from others and i'm feeling insecure at that veri moment...
whateva larx... dont feel like saying anymore... going for badminton soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. those who read this post, pls do not worry as i'm ok! and no make big fuss about it... :D
      i don think ppl will even care about mi....(some larx)

If i rmb wat happen today, i'll blog it tmr nite!

tmr's going to be yet another busy day... hahah.... camp briefing!!!!!! woo!!!!!!!!! can't wait but abit don feel like going cos tired... haha... but NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! must go!!!!!!!! yea!!!! later my engine dying liao then by the time sch starts, engine cannot go back.... haha... kkzz... abit de lazy to blog... nid to do quite a lot of things tonite... i mean online searching... so nitez bahx...
p.s. she even noe where i put the blog add how come u dunno... tsk... lazy... or don even bother....

AKE chalet finally over liao!! Had a very fun time tonning with syidah izwan kelly lixuan junyi! Hahah. Fun fun! Big fish small fish! Ultimate babi! Yea! Trust game! Haha. Slack the whole day during the second day cos super tired. Watch tv larx eat n slp... Haha! Yea! I oso go randomly act in the year 1s skit! Haha! I'm an iceberg! Wow! Had fun with dini n shahir(hope i spell his name correctly)!!! Bbq! Fun! Cos rain halfway but then we still continue! Haha! Roar! Umbrellas on the go!!! Haha! Then go nite cycling! Woo! Woo! Had fun racing with izwan then doubling with lixuan! Lixuan very gd partner! Haha! Then after sending syidah back home, we took taxi home!! Haha! 20+ bucks! Haha! Gave syidah alot of presents! Yea! Today breakfast excruciating! Haha! No appittite! Haha! Then syidah n karen made me force down my pancakes! Cos mac pancake got 3, each of us took 1 each! Haha!
But then horx.. I feel very emoy during chalet! Yup! Emoy! Very much! No one to tok to.. Tok to wall ppl tot i crazy tok to ppl i don feel safe. Haha. If i think abt it, i might as well go die cos the tot of it is excrucitating! Haha! This one seriously no joke. Slpy liao.. Although i slept for 7hrs rite after i reach home! Haha!

still doing ppl's present... someone's halfway done... 2 more still lying around... T.T no!!!! omg!!! jialat!!!! haven print out the template!!!! jialat!!! this is even worse than a lvls... haha... my financial manager already slping i still doing owrk.. haha... kkz.. shall continue go do... will be back soon...

it's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kkz!!!!!!!!!!!! no more a lvls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! unless *touchwood* ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha!!!!!!!!! kkz... next post!!!!!!!!!!!

Last...

Last day of wearing the uniform. Last exam that i'm going to take in my 13 yrs of education life. Last time i'm going to step into the sch as a student. Last time i'm going to go into the hall wearing my jacket and feeling excited. Last time i'm going to touch my mob. last time going to take exam in the hall. Last time going to take exam in such a stress condition. Last time to be a teen (no more teenage life soon liao- b'dae soon). Econs, acc, gp's last time already over. Yesterday was the last time we went to tpy to study. Monday was the last time we went to woodlands lib to study. So many last time. I think stìll got alot last time haben write.

@.@ mens came early in the morning... Delayed by 1/2 a month. Now pain until dunno is cramps or tummy ache.. T.T good and not good that it came today. Gd cos means that the chalet period is the end liao or even finished. Then during holiday no more!! Yea! Haha. No good cos cramp like crazy. Haha. Then tmr 2nd day, tmr mob n shopping. Haha. Uncomfortable day! Haha!

Anyway 1 more day to MOB paper 2! Haha! And 1 more day till freedom!

accounting.... yet again... haha... first qns: manufacturing? 2nd: job order costing 3rd qns: budgeted final a/c?
4th:... 5th: partnership 6th qns: icr/ stk...
hahaha!!!

10th Nov 2010 WED GP P1 & P2 3hrs!!!

19th Nov 2010 FRI MOB P1 & Econs P1 3hrs, 2.15hrs!!! 23th Nov 2010 Tues Econs P2 2.15hrs!!!
25th Nov 2010 Thurs Accounting P1 2.30hrs!!!
29th Nov 2010 Mon Accounting P2 3hrs!!!
2nd Dec 2010 Thurs MOB P2 3hrs!!!
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FREEDOM!!!

Yea! on the way home today with bh, saw this 2 young malay chaps... haha... chaps... one of them suddenly say: hey girl. he wants your number. -.- ello!!! i'm old enough to be your kakak!!! ROAR!!! can larx.. give mi your no. i shall keep you in check thru the police or whoeva so that you wont be a public nuisence. haha. i noe i not pretty but ugly... haha.. no nid to like that to hurt my ego or wat... i've been thru that n done that... used to it until can even laugh at myself. wat to you even got friends who dislike me. haha.. live by it be true to yourself. hehe.. shall start deleting my drafts msges in my phone.. get over life!!!
haha... weird that someone ask mi i got blog arhx? isnt it obvious? stated rite there for you to see.. it's just that you nvr make it point to go and check it out only.. even my friends oso noe abt it.. haix.. things can't be wrtten here will be put into the draft msges in phone... accessible at all times :D shld go make a private blog soon... can throw in my heart in there... but then... hmmm... like abit de not safe... like there's a safe place for you to pen down your thoughts n feelings like that... except your heart lorx... yea and it's going to blow up anytime soon!!! roar!!!
yea! shall once again start bottling up my feelings... i will be smiling on the outside n crying in the inside n noe one will noe... missing one day n ppl will start to forget about mi except for those real close ones... wrong? i would like to hear from you if you say that you wont forget mi rite after we parts to go our own ways.
now i noe how she feels.. the feelings is getting onto mi and i have no time for this S***  rite at this moment in the midst of A lvls... haha.. after As and all the outing n chalets n holidays n camps then i shall start thinking about it...
it's good to have friendships but then by getting youself too involved in it while the other party doesn't really do much... hmmm... the feeeling of the trust u've put in being abused.... hmmm.... once it happened, it will nvr stop. haha...
yea... been feeling like this since very long ago. haha. i think ard mid of this year? haha... wat to do.... this only has got to do with mi n only miself... dont try to get urself too smart by thinking it's you or wat... i noe who he/she is then can liao...

10th Nov 2010 WED GP P1 & P2 3hrs!
19th Nov 2010 FRI MOB P1 & Econs P1 3hrs, 2.15hrs!!! 23th Nov 2010 Tues Econs P2 2.15hrs!!!
25th Nov 2010 Thurs Accounting P1 2.30hrs!!!
29th Nov 2010 Mon Accounting P2 3hrs!!!
2nd Dec 2010 Thurs MOB P2 3hrs!!!
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FREEDOM!!!

Accounting paper... haix... shocking... was there sitting n shocked for the 1st few mins of the paper... was smiling at myself when doing qns 1. cos when i flip the qns paper, first qns i saw: CASHFLOW!!! WTH is this... shocked then carry on do the qns... haix..... thinking abt the cashflow while doing ratios... haha... then came out this cash book account thingy n bank reconsiliation. they say they learn before in sec sch... WAT IS THIS! i nvr learn b4. no accounting background. haix.. end liao. wat to do...overall ok but still... haix....
wateva larx... going to chiong for the paper 2.
P.S the prediction nvr really come true.. hmm.. so shld i continue to go according to the prediction or wat?

Econs sucks... haix... didnt managed to finish... but nvr liao larx... already end paper liao.. like what can do do about it after the 'Time's up! Candidates please put down your pens.'
finished liao!!!
dunno should cry or be happy about it...
seriously thinking if do not good, either go back school or private candidate liao... why is it so difficult!!! and this is only the econs paper... accounting haben start yet... still got mob to end it off... haix... finish liao then don think about it liao lorx... will continue to work hard for Thurs Accounting paper 1!!! FIGHT!!!!
going to aim for quality grade this time!!! try larx...

10th Nov 2010 WED GP P1 & P2 3hrs!

19th Nov 2010 FRI MOB P1 & Econs P1 3hrs, 2.15hrs!!!
23th Nov 2010 Tues Econs P2 2.15hrs!!!
25th Nov 2010 Thurs Accounting P1 2.30hrs!!!
29th Nov 2010 Mon Accounting P2 3hrs!!!
2nd Dec 2010 Thurs MOB P2 3hrs!!!
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FREEDOM!!!

10th Nov 2010 WED GP P1 & P2 3hrs!
19th Nov 2010 FRI MOB P1 & Econs P1 3hrs, 2.15hrs!!!
23th Nov 2010 Tues Econs P2 2.15hrs!!!
25th Nov 2010 Thurs Accounting P1 2.30hrs!!!
29th Nov 2010 Mon Accounting P2 3hrs!!!
2nd Dec 2010 Thurs MOB P2 3hrs!!!
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Must pray that econs p2 will be easier. Haha. And the rest of the papers will finish in a blink of an eye. Haha. My phone has become my second dairy. Haha. Thx to my good friend for the suggestion. Haha. Got dairy but is put in different stuff. Haha.
Feel like learning something but done like anything. Haha

Mob p1 doable but hmmm..
Econs p1 weird n sucks!

Yea! Mob in 1hrs time! Omg! 3hrs! Cant slp well yesterday nite. On bed by 10.15pm tossing n turning listening to music till 11+pm. Then woke up at 1.55am to check the clock i think. Memory fuzzy. Then woke up at 2.55am thinking it's already 6am o.o haha. Had a weird dream. I dreamt that our sch got ppl caught cheating/talking. the teacher scolded her n ban her from exam. Those beside her oso kena. Then she started crying. Haha. Dramatic!

Cant slp. Alot of things have been on my mind. Already 345am. Still awake. Was thinking that if i didnt do well this time, high possibility that i will either be doing private or go back sch. I don mind either i think. I want to do well for my A lvls and i just realise it a tad too late when my H2s starts tmr! Out of all i am the worst. Cos 1 capable of getting good quality grades, and i'm sure he/she can do it. The other one good at doing it, 2 subjects under control i think. Only left 1. To go uni, min. 2H2 pass. Me only acc. Econs n mob dunno. So haix. Tell ppl my prob they say themselves oso same. i understand that u oso concern abt urself. No one to tell to. Just bottle up in myself. I need to get at least a B C C, gp D for As. Everythings too late. Will try my best in the morning then. You may ask. What has suddenly got into me. Haha. I suddenly realise this after reading a manga. Was thinking to myself. Why izzit the protegonist always like that? When go prob nvr give up, work hard from the start and achieve gd results. After thinking abt that, was thinking that actually i can do it. It's just that i've been LAZY from the start. LAZY is part of me. I am part of LAZY. haha. So i can be like them get gd results n such after hard work. But abit too late. Shall go slp liao. Tired. Hungry. Waking up at 7+am to go down to tpy.

What colour are you? White

You value law, order, community and light.  You love to protect the social order and the rule of law.  At your best, you are just and protective. At your worst, you are authoritarian and dogmatic.  Your symbol is a sunburst.  Your enemies are black and red.

Yeahness! and Non-yeahness...

Yeahness! 1st time using hp to blog. I lousy i noe. Haha. But wat to do? Lorx. Hehe...
Non-yeahness... 2 more days to mob n econs... More confidence for mob liao... But then econs... I seriously dunno wat to do... T.T cry... Haha. Lorx. Thinking of realistic stuff rite now larx. But then still would be nice if wish n desired is fulfilled. Maslow's hierarcy of needs: self-actualisation needs. Or izzit self-esteem needs. Hmm. No idea. Haha. I think more to actualise bahx. Haha.
Ok. In order to fulfil my self-actualisation need, i will need to have enough rest to prepare for battle in the morning for the mock papers... Haha. So... Nitez!

10th Nov 2010  WED  GP P1 & P2 3hrs!
19th Nov 2010 FRI MOB P1 & Econs P1 3hrs, 2.15hrs!!!
23th Nov 2010 TUES Econs P2 2.15hrs!!!
25th Nov 2010 Thurs Accounting P1 2.30hrs!!!
29th Nov 2010 MON Accounting P2 3hrs!!!
2nd Dec 2010 Thurs MOB P2 3hrs!!!
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FREEDOM!!!

scary scary scary scary scary scary scary scary scary................................
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1 more day!!!

16 more hours to GP!
ROAR!!!!

Grad tea

finally graduated from MI!!! will miss MI and the friends... T.T had quite alot of food hehe:D  cos until after grad tea went to bar still abit full.. drank long island tea which edward recommended to us... newbies.. hehe... mi n beehui larx... haha. nice to drink not bad:D
first time going to a bar at Pump room i think:) nice place to chill out... got live band.. do u call that a band? cos only got 2 person... hehe... then zhean went up to sing... followed by edward n weiqi... after the aina that group came to join us, insyirah oso went to sing:D so nice... everyone singing....
then around 1015 when clubbing at Rebel... i noe it's super early for clubbing... but then some of us nid to go home early... then since it's ladies night, it's free of charge for the girls!!! FOC!! haha. then 1st time going there to exprience... abit too loud n cold... hehe... cos i think no ppl at that pt of time bahx... hehe...
i love the grad tea gift:) nice. it's a note book with personalised msg.. hehe... other teachers give quotes including ms A, mr L give us personalised msg. haha... so onli a few of us got his msg. hehe:D  he say i kampong girl... hehe... lorx. thx mr L:D

27more days left. feeling super stressed. until i no motivation liao. it will come back soon. motivation needs a rest too you noe. he's not a robot. haha
some ppl said some stuff... made mi even feel more sad. i noe that we are of a whole different lvl all tgt... i noe 'ya. to you... early...' but me 'it's nvr early' when we hear it we sad lehx. noe no intention larx. but then... haix... tell oso wont get it... heh. i think cos motivation going on a break that's why i feeling like that. hehe. tmr going out shopping with my friends for grad tea:) then fri go play badminton oso at cck stadium!! woo!!!

After prelims... 7 more working days till Grad tea... 30+ more days to GP... 50+ more days till end of A levels...
Prelims
hmmm.. it was ok larx. failed econs. pulled down by case study.. haix. accounts... Just nice hit my target. just nice only. mob. also just nice pass. gp, passed but failed P1 terribly. tsk. haix. no comments abt it. happy only 1 day abt the not bad results of some papers, emo n reflect on those that didnt do well. and shall start work again!!! weee!!!

7 more working days till Grad tea
hmmm... didnt know what to wear to grad tea. like alot of ppl wearing dress. wanted to try wear too. but fat wear not nice... so dunno how.... headache... hehe...

30+ more days to GP
I'M SCARED!!! IT'S THE PASSPORT TO UNI!!!

50+ more days till end of A levels
it's a great day a holiday! a holiday for all!!!!

prelim 2 over

finally over! got back some of the exam papers. some are quite unexpected in terms of good things and bad things. but some are expected. the usual lorx. econs case study. what to do.nvr seems to pass econs case study b4. means getting more than 27/60. haix. although expected but still sad about it. hmm. appreciating tea coming soon! woo! dunno what to wear. lorx.

haix. super tiring day after performance. i mean the day after performance.
slp slp slp.

do you know that you have indirectly hurt us( hmmm... i think i mean me) by doing this. you are to be my blanket of security but i think as time passed, this blanket is getting thinner by the minute. now i know why i choose to be alone in the first place even though i have my 'friends' around mi. this is so that i would not hurt myself when this friendship ends and it will i assure you. only sooner or later. and it's not mi who choose to end it. now i've gotten myself too deep in this friendship thing that i cant seem to get out. just like a quicksand. whatever you do, it's make me feel sad, angry, helplessness. and to feel this at this time of the year is such a not good thing with prelims in 1 week time. haix.
YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE ONLY TO TEACH ME HOW TO LIVE ALONE.. not only that.
YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE ONLY TO TEACH ME THAT THESE RELATIONSHIPS WILL NEVER LAST.. thank you for that.

restless

haix. i know that it'a less than a month to prelims 2 and 90 days left till A lvls. but i think that now i do not have the same enthusasim found during common test'09 and prelim 1. i just feel "uh". don't really know what to do. but i know that i must keep studying. did mock exam for accounts today and found out that i can't do partnership account( AGAIN!). ratio- haven't fully memorise the formulas. and worse of all THEORY!!!! OMG. for the 20m qns, the calculation part only consist of around 4-6m. so little!!! then the rest is theory. explain this explain that. give advise. blah blah blah. haix.

I think that the world teach me how to make friends to learn the feeling of fustration, lonely, disappointment, and whatever things you can think of.

98 days left

98 DAYS LEFT to General Paper!!! OMG. and I'm still failing my GP. My lecturer said that other JC students the moment they start writing means they will pass. 'Coz their language is strong at least stronger than mine.
Actually promised myself not to use computer except every Saturday. BUT... but... It's so tempting but... I can't use it. So I can see myself starting to get away from the addiction of the computer. I will try my best to discipline myself. Because I do not want to start blaming myself of why I'm couldn't stop myself from using the comp if that is what lead to my downfall. *Touchwood*
So maybe once in awhile i will update about what's happening during these 98 days left.
Yups! Did you reliease that I'm trying my best not to write in Singlish. Need to get use to talking and writing in proper English. If not, say sayonara to my GP => University.  Don't want this to happen. I will go to the University! YES!!
So I shall go off now, studying for tommorrow's Economics mock exam. It's on mircoecons. FIGHTING!!!! I shall pass for this time round's exam!!!

after prelim 1

hmmm... finished mob with confidence that at least can pass. but in the end. wth. i failed.
econs too. practise so much. but just nice pass by .000001. thought will do better at least a D. wth.
but a least i score not bad for my market failure section. not bad not bad.
accounting. not bad just nice meet the target of 59 which is a C. but then not satisfied got 1 more mark to B. chicken sia. 1 more bloody mark. shouldn't have target at that kind of markx. haix. wat to do.
think for mob confirm drop band, demoted liao. from her class to his class. haix. wat to do.
today just finish acc mock exam. nvr really study. dont think got study. haha. but got pass larx if dont count in the theory marks. nvr count in so i pass. if count in 44. ya.
today sports cambara. hmm. not a bad sports. fun. but then got 1 lady. wth. she ask if we sitting in class. i 'huh?' her. then she say i no manners cos i 'huh' at her. then she say izzit cos her english is not good enough that's why i 'huh' at her. wtf. she like suddenly ask one qns n tok quite soft too. how to listen. i lazy to entertain her so keep my mouth shut. haha. anyway dont think she singaporean. not to criticize or discriminate ppl. it's just that pls do not be so sensitive. i just 'huh' onli cos she toking so soft. so by a 'normal' human's reaction it will be 'huh' rite? that the singaporean way i think. i wont say ' i beg your pardon?' i'm not train for this kind of things.
yup. that's all about my life during this prelim period.
and oh ya! night study started today! woo!!! yup! study study study!!!
oh ya. oso didnt manage to get the yog tix for handball. chicken sia. waste my time. i tot they say first come first serve. but then it seems like only those arts class get wat they wanted bahx maybe. then starting from the biz class all the way to science class, money nid to refunded cos no more tix liao. nid to choose another sports. sian larx. i dont feel like going to watch during normal days(school days). like sian lehx. after 4 periods of lessons then go watch yog games. not tired mehx? i tired. ya.

emo is the word

for once as i step out of the lrt platform, i feel like dying wanting to die. serious cease my existence from this planet. hehe. then when i got out, i went to buy food. bread i mean. lots of bread. what to do. $1 per bread. so bought 5 ate 3. gave 1 . another for tmr. food shld the man's best friend. yup.

The very existence of you is not... you bring laughter to people, you annoys ppl, you make ppl angry sometimes but then it's ok... don't doubt your very existence...
it's such a depresing year.

what will you do?

what will you do if i die? cry for me? be happy about it? be indifferent?
OR
what will you do if i disappear 1 day? "where did you go?" "better if she disappear!" "who the hell is she?"
So what will you do?